MAK....TIKAH RINDU SANGAT KAT MAK

      Pertama kali ak jejak di bumi USIM ni, mak dan abah tak ada bersamaku kerana Allah telah menguji kesabaran dan semangat aku untuk ke menara gading yang sudah sekian lama aku impikan sejak kecil lagi .Sebelum aku bertolak ke sini,mak muntah-muntah yang sangat teruk .hatiku sangat berat untuk meneruskan niat ke USIM pada hari tersebut tapi....mak aku sempat berpesan ..tikah gy nanti belajar molek-molek ae...Ya Allah luruh hati ak mendengarnya.Tidak berapa lama kemudian ,ayah,abg n kkak terus bawa mak ke hospital dan pihak hospital menahan mak. Aku masih di hospital pagi tu utk melihat mak tetapi ayah menyuruh ak,n abg ngn kkak bergerak ke Nilai untuk menghantar aku.Hati aku berat untuk meninggalkan mak tapi walaubagaimanapun ak harus meneruskan p'jalanan aku ini.

       Sepanjang perjalanan,air mata aku x berenti-renti untuk keluar. Aku betul-betul sebak kerana ni kali pertama ak jauh dengan mak dan abah.Lebih kurang kul 4 saya sampai kat rumah abang di Rawang,Selangor. Pada hari keesokannya ,abg2 n kkak ak ntar ak ke USIM. Ak lihat semua mak ayah dyeorg ad bersama-sama ngn anak dye.Mak ayah mana x happy bila anak dye dpt bljr kt u...Sebelum mak sakit pun mak ad pesan nak ntr tikah gy usim la blh jln kt NILAI 3 tp sekarang tu sume dah hilang. Allah telah menguji keluarga ak dengan secepat ini.

       Kemudian ,mak ngn abah dapat rezeki untuk pergi ke tanah suci Mekah. Alhamdulilah ak sempat jmpa mak ngn abah .Sebelum mak ngn abah msuk ke tmpat berkumpul para jemaah haji ak dan adik beradik lain sangat sedih krna ni bru first time kami berjauhan dgn mak n abah .Walaunagaimanapun, kami sume kena bersabar krna ibadah haji tu memang penting untuk semua org muslim dan ia juga merupakan salah satu rukun islam.Sepanjang mak ngn abah dekat Mekah kami adik beradik mesti akn call mk ngn abg tiap2 hari. ayah selalu cakap mak x sihat kt sana.mak x makan ,mak x blh buat ibadah mcm org len.Kmi sangat sedih bla dapt tahu berita ni.abah dah bwk mak pergi hospital kt sana.Pihak hospital dh masukkan air byk botol dh tapi mak xda effect pn .Semasa di Mekah mak hnya blh bt tawaf je tu pn mnggunakan kerusi roda yg len sume abah buatkan utk mak .

        Selepas sebulan setngah mak ngn abah kt sana,dah tiba masanya mereka pulang ke Malaysia .Mak ngn abh trun kt KLIA jd ak n abg yg ad kt Rawang je ambk mk ngn abah.spupu ad jgk sekali. Mak ngn abh org terakhir yg keluar dr balai ketibaan .Ak btl2 xblh cam mak dgn abah.spupu ak yg perasan pd mulanya .Mak ngn abah smakin kurus terutamanya mak. Mak duduk di ats kerusi roda .Pada mulanya kalau blh ak xnk menangis tp apabila keadaan mcm ni tiba-tiba air mata ak berderai .Keesokannya ,mak ngn abah balik ke Terengganu naik flied jgk. Adik beradik ak yg len tnggu mk ngn abah kt aitport Terengganu. Adik beradik ak yg len jga x cam mk ngn abh. Mak ngn abah btl2 len pd msa tu.

        Selepas seminggu lbih mk ngn abah sampai Terengganu, mak asyik x sihat dan bdan dye sgt lemah .Abah dan adik beradik yg len ambik kptusan ntr mak ke hospital wlaupun mak x nak pergi hopital .Mak hmpir sebulan lbh berada di hosptal. Namun begitu ,mak dapat tahu yg dye ad mnghidap pnyakit kanser hati dang pankreas setelah 3 minggu berada di hospital .Sebelum tu doktor xblh nk kesan mak skit apa .kami adik beradik ngn abah sgt sedih bila dapat tahu kputusan ini .kptusan ini dapt dibuat selepas mak msuk dlm terowong dan msuk kamera 2 kali dlm perutnya . tetapi aku sangat bersyukur pada Allah s.w.t kerana telah bg ak ksmptan pd aku untuk mnjaga mk walupn skjap.  Ak masih diberi ksmptan untuk mnjaga mak semasa study week ak. Semasa study week ak stdy pn sbb ak rsa mk ak lbh pntng .Ak b'jya @ tak itu sume kerja Tuhan ak sbg umatnya perlu b'usaha dan tawakal je .

         Setelah beberapa hari ak blik ke USIM semula utk final exam mak ak mntk blik ke rumah kerana dye rsa sgt bosan dh berada di hospital .Setelah beberapa hari di hospital ,tiba-tiba aku dapat call dr kkak ketika itu ak berada di surau dan bru sdh selesai solat insyak .Kkak ak call smbil menangis2 ak tnya knpa dye gtau mak nazak.Pd mulanya ak x p'cya sbb bru ptg itu ak telefon abah dye ckp mk ok je..kemudian,pd jam 11.50 mlm kkak call lg dan mngatakan mak ak dh xda. ya Allah cptnya Kau ambik nyawa mk ak..

insyaAllah sy akn smbung blik cter ni...........

EXAMANATION WEEK..............

       First and foremost ,i want to wish to all my friends especially tc Sha HAPPY NEW YEAR 2013 .I hope this year is better than the year before and we must have a plan and mission ot target for this year. So.we will be more spirit to make our target can be realisation.

        Then,for this first new year also have a final exam .until this today alhamdulilah..all of us passed 3 papers already, we only have 3 papers more. Although just have 3 papers but it is so diffucult for me or another words the killer subject .Besides that ,i will study hard to get the best result. I want to give the best result for my beloving parents .They hope that i can get a good result altough our family get some of the trouble now .So ,yesterday and today i make the best in my examination but i don't know that all the answer which i make true or not ,so i will accept after this that the fate from Allah to me ,,,insyaAllah..ok tc...i want to continue my study again.pray for us k..luv u tc sha

THE BIG TEST FOR ME............

       Yesterday ,my family had shocked that my mother have a cancer at the pancrease and liver .We are so sad especially my mother .Doctor said that my mom has a cancer 3 month ago but before this hospital can not detect the real sickness that occured to my mother .Firstly , my mom cannot accept her sickness because she feels she doesn't have energy to against her sickness .Then ,today doctor put a tube in her duct gall bladder to be easy for the food excretion .

       So today my mother so weak and doesn't have energy anymore. I'm so sad when i see my mother are complete with attire for operation .I thinks i want to replace at the place my mom .I looks my mom so weak .After 3 hours my mom make a operation my mom back to her bad and bleeding are occured .This is because my mom accidentally stepped to her needle.I'm so pity at her .After a few minutes ,my mother aware .All her body aches and thes it is cause my mother want to angry all the person around her .At that time only my father and i have around her. We are ignore our feeling because we are very understanding the feeling the person sickness .

       Now, my family are finding the best way to prevent my mom sickness.The doctor said only make cimoteraphy are the best way because it can reduce the cancer but my family hear many cases that cimotheraphy is very dangerous .It's have many side effect .So,if someone have another alternatif to prevent my mother sickness please tell me immediately .your helpness are very important to our family. Actually .i doesn't prepared yet to loss my mother .

LOVE U MOM..........

         Now ,i'm recently returned from the hospital after one day i'm look after my mother because yesterday is my turned. At this night ,my younger sister look after my mother and then tomorrow my younger sister and i look after together ,insyaAllah .I'm so sad when i see my mother. My mother doesn't like before this .My mother already stay in 2 weeks in the hospital. She looks boring and doesn't have energy to eat also .As we know ,without eating ,i'm sure our body will weak .Right?? urmmm...my siblings always think what the best way to tell our mother eating more from normally .

         This is just information for my friends that want to know my mother's conditions .InsyaAllah ,tomorrow my mother will make a operation to put a camera in her heart .After she makes the operation ,our family can get the real decision my mother have a sickness what? I hope tomorrow ,my siblings and i can be patient to the God to hear a result for our mother sickness. Now ,we just can pray to Allah so the result are positif.Ok la ye...i want continue to study..chaiyook ,chaiyook ,chaiyook !!!! , 

ALHAMDULILAH..I'M IN TERENGGANU NOW...............

           Around 5 a.m today i arrived at the bus station Kuala Terengganu.My journey take for seven hours from Seremban to Terengganu. I'm so happy because i can see and look after all my family .Many of my members family are stay in terengganu only and my brothers stay out of Terengganu. My brothers stay in Rawang because his works on there. Today night ,my brothers that sit in Rawang also back to Terengganu because want to visit our beloved mother in Hospital Sultanah Nur Zahirah in Kuala terengganu. Our mother are not feeling well. She already stayed in Hospital for the weeks .Firstly ,doctor said she suffering from pneumonia but the water in her lungs are already released.After a few days .my mother's esyes change to yellow color. then ,doctor said my mother hert also broken but doesn't have a real decision. I hope my mother can be health like before this. 
    
           Ok... i will continue my story ,after i arrived at the bus station my sister pick up me to her house is not far from the hospital .around 9 o'clock my sister and i go to the hospital for visiting our mother while bring some of the food to my mother and younger sister .Firstly i saw my mother just now my tear fastly out from my eyes .My mother dosn't like before. She looks thin and doesn't energy to make something or eating. I have fed Roti canai to her but 2 or 3 times only she ate after that she doesn't to ate. i'm so sad look my mother like this .

            ok la...i want to get ready to go hospital again for take care of mother for awhole day today. i hope all my friends and also tc Sha can pray and make solat hajat to my mother so quick heal and become already like before. Thanks for all....

TODAY IS PICYURES DAY......

         Today ,my Arabic and English class are finished .Then ,in this morning just now ,my friends and i was held a small party to my Arabic's lecturer. Sorry,,,tc Sha we are not held a party for u but we will planned to held a memorize program to u one day ,insyaAllah. my Arabic's lecturer name is Ustaz Khairul Anwar .He is a good and excellent in arabic speaking. Every times his class he can't speak in Malay .This is because he has set in his mind to talk and teach to his students fullness in Arabic .But ..today in his last class he speak in Malays. We are very happy and excited to hear what he want to talk. At the first time he talk ,he looks not comfortable in his speaking but after a few minutes he can speak in Malay normally .Some of the my friends make a recorder when he speaks but he not allowed us to make a recorder because he worried that oneday the university know that he speaks in Malay in Arabic's class but for my opinion it is not a big problem to the lecturer to speak in Malay because many of the lecturer are malay. Why do they do not speak in their alone language for the sometimes right ?? ok..After we had finished ate some of the cakes my friends and i took the photograph with Ustaz. At this time ,i only knew Usataz Khairul Anwar also a sporting person.

       Then ,after we had finished Arabic class we continued with English class.As we know this english class is tc Sha class of course. Today ,i'm so late come to the class because i go to the BTS 2.1 firstly. After i opened the door doesn't people in this class. Without wasting my time ,urgently i call k.dibah and ask her where the class held?Actually my English class was held in BTS 1.2. Huhuhu...i'm so afraid and worried tc sha will lock the door again.hu3.When,i enter the class tc sha are teaching about how to answer the reading question properly. The tips is good for me because normally i'm always sleepy when i want to answer the reading question.so i must remember that if we want to answer the reading question we must scheme and scanning firstly ok.And then ,we just read 2 lines above before we answer the question for the understand the story talk how about..So i hope my finl exam i will make and answer the best for all the question.Teacher pray for me ae...After tc had finished teaching we also took some the photograph for our memeorable with a sporting lecturer. She is of course tc sha.

        For the last ,i want to apologize with all my beloved friends epecially BLC 3. I'm also want to apologize to tc Sha.I'm so sorry if i had make a wrong to the teacher or i'm always disturb u especially at this last times ok. I hope tc dedicates the knowledge that teacher gives to me before this .May god bless u   

HURMMM...MY SPEECH CLASS TODAY

         I'm so tired now .I have back from my speech class just now .Today is a meaningful today for the speech class because i am required to speech in front of the class .Firstly ,when i stand in front of the class i am already nervous .My lecturer ,cg Zuhdi have given this duty has been long but it is my fault .i doesn't prepared my speech properly .I just make a text to give a speech but i doesn't practice. Cg Zuhdi many times said "you must practice this speech at least 6 times.I'm sure all of you success in your speech " but i'm still ignore his advise because i think cg Zuhdi is a sporting and kind lecturer .Lastly,today i have tested from my lecturer."Argghh.....i must to do what for now?i doesn't practice properly " After i think for a minutes ,i think i must go to the front of the class must do the speech to my friends although it is broken..hahahaha.First i speech it's still ok but after a few minutes my points are lost.I got blur at that time.Lastly ,Cg Zuhdi said to me have a sat. Actually i'm so sad because i can't give a speech kindly .I also don't know why i'm very nervous if i want to talk or give something in front of the class when i'm in university now .Actually ,when i'm school i'm just ok and normal to give a talk or speech in front of the comunity. Maybe ,i'm not suitable anymore sit in this university.After this situation have occured to myself just now i'm cultivate new spirit in myself to be a good and better person to give a speech in braveness in front a lot of the person. So ,i hope i will can give my speech and try my best for the last project in this Friday .Insyaallah...I hope my friend and tc sha also can give me encouragement because i think a  to be good person she must  good in speech and talker.As we know ,our Malaysia are advanced now so to be a good Malaysian we must have a good speech ok.